.

Sometimes, no matter how hard I try, I just feel lonely.

I'm so confused by this.  But it's true.

I bet this has nothing to do with me starting my period.

...

Okay maybe it does.  Nonetheless, I still feel lethargic and downright sad.

It's embarrassing that I am complaining about such a ridiculous feeling when I have so many wonderful loved ones near by.

I have weird period-mood-swing-feelings.  One period I'm sad and tired, the next period I'm angry and tired, and the following period I'm happy as a clam (and tired).

And when I say I'm tired, I mean I'm physically exhausted and I also become completely unenthused about the semi-meaningless life I seem to be leading.  My job, my schooling, my social life.  I always question everything while Aunt Flow is in town.

On a side-note: the term "Aunt Flow" in reference to my period totally grosses me out.

I want pizza.  There's another thing...For the most part I am pretty okay with my curvy, albeit partially soft, body.  But when the menstruation is in full effect...man alive!  I can be so critical of myself!  Yet all I want to eat is chocolate.

Fuck today, fuck yesterday, and fuck the rest of this week.

To quote Vada from My Girl, "Get outta here!  And don't come back for five to seven days!"


-Amanda

Tooth ache.

I often drive myself crazy.

Sometimes I am such an asshole.

I annoy myself more than others annoy me.

Most of the time, I haven't a clue as to why I am the way I am.

My life is good.  No, my life is pretty fucking amazing.  Yet here I am, being a grump.  Grump this and grump that.  I just need to shut up and smile.  Because I'm just so pathetic.  Ugh.


Today I am going to Multnomah Falls.  Today will be a nice day.  I hope to snap out of my stupid mood in order to enjoy the beauty of my hike.  Even though I'm so out of shape I'll be sweating like a hot mess and I'll look like a cow.

Oh dear, there's that attitude again.

SHUT UP AMANDA!